Love and Uncertainty

I love you Steven!!

These two help my life seem not so scary and uncertain - they make me smile!

Grandpa and #2 Funny Boy. Dad is the ultimate optimist, and Funny Boy gives me a loving pat on the back when I need it.

I'm so thankful I could be there to see the Northrups sealed together. Family = the greatest support system!

Christmas Eve '08 in new jammies. What else matters when you can look at these five faces every day?

The greatest parents in the world!

My #3 sweetie in his school Thanksgiving play.

#5 turned two years old. My little princess is growing up TOO fast!

#4 Big Boy turned four years old. His need for routine and security seem all too familiar.

Princess LOVED the LA Zoo, as did all the kids!

#1 Princess at the Zoo. I don't know what I'd do without my Sar-Bear!

The whole gang at the zoo - that was such a fun day.

I have been having what you might call a Blogger block. Didn't know what to write, didn't know what pictures to post. So much has happened in the last two months. One of the reasons I do this blog is to have a record of the happenings and goings on at the Hurlbert house. So, just write something, and get on with it!

I don't like uncertainties. I never have. My whole life I've been a worry wort, a big fat chicken, and scared of everything, most especially the uncertainty in my life. I remember coming home from college for the summer, and each fall, going back to a new semester, sometimes new roommates and new everything. I also remember crying in the bathroom of Mom and Dad's house before leaving to go back to Provo, because it all seemed so scary and uncertain.

Well, for the last few months, life is once again uncertain and scary. Steven has been in Texas since September, I've been on my own, managing to keep the house going (just barely) and the kids taken care of (now that I think I do pretty well). Steven needs to find a permanent job, because the job in Texas was just temporary. We knew that going in to it. A new job might take us to another state. Scary and uncertain. A new job in another state would mean leaving family. But then it might mean being close to family that have been gone for a while from SoCal. And that's a good thing!

Steven and I are so blessed. We have an amazingly supportive family and the best parents in the world. We have five wonderful children, who bring us more joy and happiness than I ever thought possible. We have wonderful friends in our last ward, and in our present ward, who keep up with us, and who also love and support us. And of course we have the gospel in our lives, and the blessings that brings us.

I do have faith that things will work out, and there will be less uncertainty in my life. I look forward to being with Steven again soon, and facing our challenges together. That is how it should be.